feeling 15 again

It's not even the least bit comical how angry and homicidal the dmv makes me. I envisioned myself screaming

"FUCK YOU" 

at the lady behind the counter and throwing her stack of driving manuels across the room...

until she told me that I passed the test. 

Then I smiled and walked out of there and made myself not worry about the fact that I STILL have to get an official letter from the florida dmv stating that I have a valid licence or take the driver's test again (which would make me feel pathetic since I'm 22 years old and the last time I took the driving test I was 16. I'm just sooooo past that).

So for now I just have a permit. 

15 again? Please.

And still trying to figure out what I'm going to do with my life.

I've been applying for various nannying jobs and little odds and ends and this and thats and anything but having to be under the thumb of some corporate fucker. 

So yes. 

I'm feeling positive in spite of the cirumstances 

(the dmv hating my existence. Not having a job or any proper income. wondering wondering wondering freaking WONDERING.)

I just hope that I can feel like a contributing member to society someday soon.