I think the most important lesson I'm currently learning is patience.

Lack of patience has had me so anxious, frustrated, pensive, and angry so much in my life.

Everything about my life right now is forcing me to reflect on what it means to truly be

patient.

To have peace knowing that things don't always happen right away, or even as you think they will.

To have wisdom to know that bad times pass. just as good times seem to slam into bad, bad times always creep their way back to good.

For life to be balanced it must have the good and the bad. The dark and light. The opposite to everything. I forget when I'm stuck in a storm that there is otherness around it. The storm isn't everything. It may be encompassing everything I feel and think at a certain time, but other stuff, good stuff, eventually ends up permeating through that fog and rain and voila-

suddenly I'm back in the sun. And getting a glorious tan, at that.

and it just takes patience. it just takes that little bit of beauty and courage rilke suggests, showing our fears and our sadnesses that we can be graceful. we can overcome. we can get through. and time passes and things are different and its all new and patience will prove that.

I love life. I love it's heavens and I love it's hells.