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my fingers are weighted down like anchors that just want to sink as deeply as they can into ocean bottom.

but my brain forces them to type it's thoughts, to conjure up some words and images so i can see with my eyes what i'm feeling.

what i'm thinking.

and what i'm thinking is that life is crazier and more interesting than i ever thought it could be.

what i feel is blessed peace for the first time in a while.

complete contentment with where i am at this moment.

completely fulfilled by love.