Last night was one of the most enjoyable times I've had in awhile.
My mom and I went to this cute little wine bar downtown and listened to live music and drank wine and it was just...so relaxing.
It was a guy on guitar (the singer), girl on cello, and another girl singing and playing violin. They played Damien Rice, Jeff Buckley, Ryan Adams, Once, Across the Universe. It was splendid.

I just couldn't stop smiling and it made me reailze why people go out dancing. I really wanted to get up and start dancing, especially after the day I had. I understand now how that is a release and how it just brightens peoples moods no matter how horrible life seems to be. I might try going out and dancing when I'm in a funk from now on.

Also, yesterday afternoon after having lunch with my dad I went and sat on a bench and smoked a cigarette. Some guy walked by and said "you look relaxed".
and I muttered under my breath, "I wish".
Its so weird how you never really know what impression you're giving off or how other people really feel. I liked that he thought I looked relaxed, because maybe he envied me in that moment, even though I was so miserable.

and because of that, you can really be however you want to be, whatever mood you want to be in, I felt more relaxed because that man percieved me as so.

Hm.