I'm bouncing from one thought to the other, forgetting what I was doing as soon as I start trying to do it, not wanting to sit still or have a minute to myself, pacing, not being able to hold my concentration on one thing for too long.
It's a little frustrating, I want to just be peaceful and content in whatever moment I'm in. I don't want to constantly be searching for the next thing to fill a need in me. I'm craving everything lately: fun, people, experience, education, information, serotonin, food, drink, smoke, words, quiet, noise, exersize, laziness, sleep, wake, cleanliness, dirtiness, comedy, drama, logic, and insanity.
I'm on this crazy roller coaster that has so many dips and turns and my head kind of hurts and I'm a little nauseous, but I just want to keep going. Because I'm having so much fun.
Anyway. This morning Kitch, Joe, and I painted with watercolors while watching across the universe. It was definitely the highlight of my day. It was so enjoyable. That movie really is insane. The visuals. The message. The characters. Uggggh. I actually think I might go out and rent a movie. I'm not sure why I've been so opposed to spending any time alone lately. It might be good for me to chill out by myself apart from sleeping.
Also, I've gone the entire day without a cigarette and I feel GREAT. I am so excited that I finally made the decision to be healthy. And with the vaporizer on the way, I'm going to be healthier all around in my smoking habits.
Now I just need to get to the chiropractor and figure out what is going on with my bones. Anna thinks I might be growing. That would be weird.
Oh, and I am officially a person with two jobs.
I'm a working girl.
That means money and that means no more handouts from mommy.
yes.
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