Because I need to see with my own eyes.
Something tangible that I can nod my head in agreement with, or walk away from disturbed.
But just to know, and acknowledge.

Creativity is a word that I can't get out of my head lately. Sometimes I stop and ask myself "Am I a creative person, really?" Everyone seems to think that being an actor makes you a creative person. But if you're never acting, what are you creating? Creating opportunities, I suppose. Creating relationships. Creating hope and trying as hard as humanly possible to maintain it.

I used to consider myself a writer. I used to think I had something to say. But maybe I don't have a story, or a message, or a point to make- I only need to see these thoughts and feelings unfold in front of me. I need to create letters, strung together on a page that somehow amounts to what was inside of me once. But a story would be nice. A few characters. A plot. A beginning, middle, and end. That would be nice.

Then to take that story and roll a camera in front of it. Chop it up nice and call it a movie.

Now how to make that happen.